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Stink and Dutty Lovers

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

You noticed me during the season I love the most

Who knew we would share an embrace after our toast

Neither one of us understood the look in our eyes

Yet your kiss had me memorized

Did we really do it?

Did we cross the line?

JWB in our blood

But there was love in our eyes

We didn’t see it though

I would usually mistake this encounter for you simply wanting to undress me

But the time we spend together continues to impress me

Every step you take is intentional

It’s exceptional

I can breathe freely when you’re around

Still in shock how our love is bound

You were the risk worth taking

God answered my prayers

He knew I’ve been waiting

For a man with a plan

A man that takes action

A man who hears my past but sees no infractions

A man who is patient

A man who is kind

A man un afraid to speak his mind

A man whose love for God runs as deeply as mine

I’m perfectly imperfect

But You assure me I’m worth it

With words of affirmation

Your actions give me motivation

Everyday I want to be better for you

Better for us

There’s no question that you’re the man I can trust

To have and to hold

To live freely and live bold

A love like this I don’t mean to rush

But you’re everything I’ve ever needed

So I won’t keep it hush hush

Loudly I thank God for you

You’re my safe place

Stink and Dutty lovers

Blessed by Gods Grace

Amen

Click Bait.

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

3 A.M. November Nights.
Click. Click. Click. Click. Click.

Hey is this thing on?

Inhale.

Im consumed with the desire of needing something to do

The true fear is a lifetime of solitude

I gave up late night texts with random dudes

As of recently females too

But I turned back to the one thing I promised Mama I wouldn’t do… again

Click. Click. Click.

I think the temperature is right

Click. 

Inhale.

Take me to new heights

Not sure what adventure I seek tonight.

Or morning.

Its 3AM and pouring.

Im saddened by the hypocrisy

In this life that belongs to me

Click. 

Inhale.

Everything, but time alone seems enticing

What would it take to get my mind right

I convinced myself this high was for organizing

I meant physically because im avoiding internal insight

Cause the things in my darkness 

Shouldn’t be brought to light.

But i aint move a thing yet.

Worried about the Good up gal and how tings set

Click. 

Inhale.

See the only deep clean i need is my thoughts

But changing my surroundings may help me focus

Born a month early of an April fool

Past october but still believing the hocus pocus

The joke is 

All this talk of self love

AND I am still running

Demons chasing 

I can see the silver lining of the gun in…..

My own hand 

Cause when i look back the only thing im running from is me.

But yall know I avoid a hoe

To me my advice is

No matter what the vice is

The virus is you.

No amount of men, money, or mary gonna change that boo.

So you can back bend,

Flip, spend

Or 

Click. 

Inhale.

Till it hurts

Or buckle down and mend

The heart you fail to acknowledge is broken.

The End

Click. 

Inhale.

Click. Click. Click. Click. Click.

Crepuscule Dweller

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

There’s something about darkness
The unknown of what’s to come next
No matter what the plan is
It seems to just snatch it away
But I’ve become one with the darkness
I’ve found my comfort in this unknown
Tucked away in my corner
Okay with being unknown
Because my name is not mine
It was given
And neither are you
But I once found comfort in your light
When I forgot
To whom much is given
much can also be taken away
and away you go
into the darkness of someone else’s arms
But I guess you’ve found some light there
While mine continues to dim
In this world of grim
thoughts and uncertainty
I could never capture light for too long
and by holding on
I tend to prolong
My real story
The one where my happily ever afters
are just after thoughts
and forgotten text
better yet “the best sex”
but nothing worth dwelling on
beyond the hours you perspire
and the moans mount higher
but please don’t think this song is about you
this is the comfort in my darkness
my openness with sexuality
my true reality
because it’s easier this way
and I did want you too, but I always knew you could never stay
the plan was to escape that darkness
but just like clock work, it snatched you away.

Hell?

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

Today I asked my mom if hell was curse?
To which she responded No
Which is funny to me because as a religious being you would like to go to heaven and not hell.
Hell is considered a place of eternal damnation
Life with Lucifer, the devil, the great evil one
Surrounded by flames
Constantly burning and perishing for your sins
So technically would hell not be a curse?
I would think so because to be stuck in a place of eternal damnation one would have to be cursed or hexed
Or whatever one would prefer to call it.
To hell with the concept though its all word play
Because what if hell was heaven and heaven was hell
Or love was hate and vice versa
How do we know we are not living hell on Earth
Because sometimes it damn sure feels like it
clearly, it is whatever you make of it
However, you define it is how you see it….
The good ole perception is reality