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Stink and Dutty Lovers

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

You noticed me during the season I love the most

Who knew we would share an embrace after our toast

Neither one of us understood the look in our eyes

Yet your kiss had me memorized

Did we really do it?

Did we cross the line?

JWB in our blood

But there was love in our eyes

We didn’t see it though

I would usually mistake this encounter for you simply wanting to undress me

But the time we spend together continues to impress me

Every step you take is intentional

It’s exceptional

I can breathe freely when you’re around

Still in shock how our love is bound

You were the risk worth taking

God answered my prayers

He knew I’ve been waiting

For a man with a plan

A man that takes action

A man who hears my past but sees no infractions

A man who is patient

A man who is kind

A man un afraid to speak his mind

A man whose love for God runs as deeply as mine

I’m perfectly imperfect

But You assure me I’m worth it

With words of affirmation

Your actions give me motivation

Everyday I want to be better for you

Better for us

There’s no question that you’re the man I can trust

To have and to hold

To live freely and live bold

A love like this I don’t mean to rush

But you’re everything I’ve ever needed

So I won’t keep it hush hush

Loudly I thank God for you

You’re my safe place

Stink and Dutty lovers

Blessed by Gods Grace

Amen

Letters from a Wishing Well

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

I should have told you that your mother was a bitch

Cause she truly is

House full of kids

With no love up in it

The place you grew up

Now you fucked up in it

I never needed you but I loved you

Clothed you, fed you, boosted you up

Now you on a power trip

Sir you’re too turnt up

Your own mouth said you were indebted

But instead of receiving what you took

You took my name and tried to defame

Yeah I drug yours through the dirt but the basis was true

Bare minimum papi look in the mirror you seen it to

But I’m the bitch

Cause my baby deserves better

Not just it depends on the mood or the weather

Real love and consistency that last forever

What can I expect when you don’t know love

Only I hate you , but I need you and that’s not how you show love

So yeah your moms a bitch

And your apart of the litter

What you expect from a bag of garbage?

Not for it to smell like shit

It’s ashamed I gave you the satisfaction to hit

Cause you upgraded where I downgraded

But nobody spoke on it till now

As for you’re feelings I could careless

Go ahead and drown

You’re a low down dirty good for nothing piece of shit

And yeah I let you hit, but now I know better

So I won’t parlay with clowns

Or indulge in the circus

Years will go by and elevation is my focus

You never knew better

So you could never do better

But if you feel you can disrespect me amongst the snakes that played you

Imma show you who can shoot better

Lie down like a dog

So the snakes can show you “real” love

Cause i promise otherwise it’s something you would never know

Cause your mothers a selfish bitch and you were made in her image

So spitting

I believe it was a demon you called her

Now you trapped in her spell

And it’s fuck me and everything that came with it

I can live with that

But you got to live in it

I overlooked the truth for the last time

What we had during covid was a past time

But one thing for certain two things for sure

I didn’t need you then and I damn sure don’t need you no more.

No longer will I wish you well

You honestly deserve hell

You created your fire

Now breath in the smoke

And deep down I hope you choke

Your mindset and existence is a joke

This is my last letter to the wishing well

I wish not cause you don’t deserve peace

Or grace or any of the other prayers I prayed

Goodbye

Farewell

I’ll send this letter to your quarters in hell.

Remorseful Kills

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

Sorry to all the men I gave pussy to that I shouldn’t have

Some for one night and some couldn’t last

See I gave you half of me with apathy

Because I thought the experience would be worthwhile you see.

To say I was lost is a missed point

See I was out of my mind like a laced joint

Couple of drinks till I passed out

Back to back shots so the memory of you cumming short was blacked out

The list is longer than this poem

But I needed something quick to show em

My feelings I stow em

So you would never know em

So yeah

Sorry or whatever

I did it for pleasure

But I’m still dissatisfied

You hyped up your ability to gratify

I’m not surprised

I apologize on behalf of the girls who boosted your ego

Cause it was nothing but weak strokes

And gas attempts

You ain’t even fill me up though

Big money talk but left the tank on E

So I did a quick turn

Your bro put it on me

Sorry for that too

But I have morales now

I hope all of you are somewhere sleeping nice and sound

With a nice little shorty that’ll hold it down

New Throned King

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

From the moment I saw you it was destined to be

Just a click away from acceptance and a step closer to you belonging to me

We shared goals and aspirations

Trials and motivations

I cheered you on from a distance

unsure of how to get your attention

But somehow I managed without assistance

We unfolded and molded organically

See I’m a women of few words

And ye of little faith when it comes to this topic

But your energy was resounding

When you pulled up and came through

My heart was pounding

Because from the moment I saw you it was destined to be

Your cologne was electrifying

As your story was inspiring

I wanted to fall into you and stay stuck like glue

But I’m ye of little faith when it comes to this topic

Though your smile is infectious

My heart is contentious

Because I’ve never met another like you

And it must be too good to be true

I don’t want to ruin a good thing with my apprehensions

You were clear about your intentions

And you pulled me in with those yearning eyes and supple lips

By this time I was dying for your kiss

Because you touched me before you really touched me.

Your grind, grit and determination to provide

Keeping family and goals in the forefront of your mind.

I was dreaming of the day our worlds would collide

You dove into me like a slip and slide

All things sex and pride aside I’d be a happy girl with this King by my side.

The Gamble (Suffer In Silence Pt. 2)

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

Im writing all of this like this isnt what I said to do.

I let you go and told you to go be a better you

Now im afraid that somebody else is benefiting

And I cant say a damn thing cause its my fault that you hitting

In some way i thought the crazy things i did would be enough

I should have know you wouldnt realize i was calling a bluff

I chose to separate my King when the cards were dealt

I regret rolling the dice when my sevens were set

I put the ammo in the gun, praying to win Russian Roulette.

Got to admit thats the most foolish thing I’ve done yet.

Resent-full

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

How dare you pretend to understand
The only thing we have common is that
everything we did, we do it for you
You’re out there with your friends now
While I’m holding my head down
Praying to sleep
When the loneliness creep
Writing this In the same bed
Read it and weep
But thats my problem now
You care as long as there’s timeouts and your opponent’s controller is down
Out of bounds
Out of a touch
I don’t want you as much
You’re everything I wish I never had
And i’m not sad
I’m mad
That I let myself be stupid
Like c’mon only a fool believes in cupid
Cause love doesn’t strike
In the dark loneliness of night.
You may say I wrote this out of spite
But it is what it is
Or is what it isn’t
I can’t wait to be done because this feeling is prison
Bound the feelings I no longer want within
The thought of you should be a sin
My dark twisted fantasy
But you aint no Kanye
Yet I put you on the pedestal
Mr. Oh don’t worry it’ll get better though
There’s a few things you’ll never know
Ego blind and Pride covered
King of the jungle bullshit
I hate what I allowed you to do to me
Thank me, but fuck you
I wish I never fucked you
I wish you never answered that text after weeks of trying
Now I’m washed up
Hung up
Drying…
Dying……..
To change emotions with potions
To wash away the stain of you
The pain of you
The I can’t believe I’m just a maybe too
In this elixir of life I got one thing for you
An immeasurable bag of resentment
Full of things I should of saved for Mr. I do too.

Grim Reaper

Posted on by flamesinthesilverlining

If I stop writing
I might find an excuse to kill myself
Not because of you
or him
or her
or because people lack compassion for others
or because of racial injustice
or the fact that there are complete psychos outside
who may kill me first and I would prefer to have the gratification
But,
Because idle time is the devil’s playground
and while i may sit here all alone
The world seems to carry on
so what’s the world with
one less lonely girl
toting a shit ton of “imaginary” issues
because what I see seems to be invisible to most
and I’d hate to give someone else the burden
Because when I do it
I’ll be able to get away with murder